I didn't post pictures. I most likely won't post pictures. I am not a young single guy and my training is not to look better but to be better.
I have always wondered why I always seemed to fall short and would sabotage myself into not following through. Not long after my last post I found out that I have a diagnosis of depression. People who know me, like, really know me, wouldn't think this as some grand revolution. Same as finding out I am a control freak with a type A personality. But both of these things were a revolution to me.
So. What now. Now, I do what I can. I train when I can, as hard as I am able. I make lists and try and follow them. I look at it as treatment. I let others do things and I get myself moving. It is good for me.
This last week I met a goal of mine that I had been thinking about for a while. I lifted 10,00 pounds in one day. I have started running just to run. And now my body is fighting back against bad foods and not letting me eat them.
I want to see where this will take me.
